"Life is always waiting for you." - IKYA

My name is Guro, I am 34 years old and in my second year of spiritual studies, IKYA Crystal, and have now also studied in the IKYA Mantra course for one year. This is my journey of meeting Enlightened Master IKYA.

Before, my life was about helping others and getting everyone to like me. I searched outside myself to find strength, acceptance, stability and meaning. Exercise and diet became an important part of controlling my life - with a goal of being good enough in the eyes of others, wanting to be the best and managing myself. I had great capacity and never knew any limitations. I had a nice life on the outside, but inside, something wasn't right.

It was a turning point when I had my second child and was bedridden with severe pain - a long fall without being able to get back up again. Suddenly, I was unable to take care of my loved ones and was dependent on help around the clock. My strengths of being strong-willed, disciplined and a perfectionist became weaknesses. Physical training and not sensing inside myself - which were my previous best tactics - made things even worse. My head and body were not connected. Would I ever get well again? Many doubted.

The author, Guro

For me, not getting well was not an option. After a while, I started IKYA Therapy with IKYA Therapist Else, although this choice created a lot of resistance in me. Was this form of treatment a type of religion? Am I going to go crazy? I had no experience with spirituality other than that I had done some meditation.

I was so desperate for help that the desperation overrode the fear and judgmental parts of me. Gradually, I saw improvement, and I became more aware of my patterns. I was recommended to IKYA's year-long spiritual study in IKYA Crystal, as well as IKYA's course in mantra. Even with a fear of other people's judgments, I signed up for both courses. The education started during the period when I was training to return to work, and when I look back on it now, I am certain that the courses and the treatments with Else were crucial for me to be where I am today - that I can take care of our children, have enough energy and be back at work.

The two courses together with the IKYA Ganapati study team have provided and continue to provide me with support, inspiration, challenge, as well as tools to heal and raise my consciousness so that I am able to work on myself and to see life as an arena for learning and development. Meeting people in a genuine way without a facade is one of the best things I experience with my Ganapati team and with the teachings.

I have become more aware of how important it is to be with people in order to become a good fellow human being. "Be with others as you would like others to be with you," has become an important reminder from IKYA for me.

Now I can use my discipline and dedication as a strength, in studying Life. The road towards gradually becoming a real fellow human being without my emotions, illusions and needs overriding all the time. I can be present, alive.

And even if I walk into the fog and don't see the path sometimes, I know by letting go of control, life will show me the direction.

"Life is always waiting for you." - IKYA