Awakening at dawn

The alarm rings at 5:00 a.m. every morning now. This is when I’m meant to rise. This routine is my challenge, my practice, and my healing, all wrapped into one ritual. It’s dark, and honestly, today, I’d rather stay in bed. I watch as my husband Bjarne quietly slips out from under the blankets, and all I want is to close my eyes for a few more minutes, maybe drift back into dreams, sleep next to our beautiful son who crawled into bed with us during the night. What is spirituality, really? Lying here, holding him close, feels as divine as it gets.

Yet, these early mornings matter. Waking up while it’s still dark, gifting myself this time for personal practice before the world awakens, is one of the most revolutionary choices I’ve made in my life. We get up in silence, exchanging understanding glances, sometimes a gentle hug, but no words. We roll out our mats, place our crystals in front of us, and sit down, ready to center. We warm up with a gentle yoga flow, a sequence that tunes our bodies and minds over 20 minutes before closing with our eyes shut, connecting in stillness.

And this, this is where the magic begins. My pulse slows, and I can feel emotions surfacing like waves lapping against the shore with each inhale and exhale. Then, quiet arrives. I sense our hearts merging, drawing us into a shared field of presence. I observe what I’m carrying today, what weighs on me. This morning, I felt a certain sadness, vulnerable but tender. And, somewhere deep within, I heard a bubbling laughter — my own? As I focused on it, a sunrise painted itself across my inner vision.

Early morning meditation ❤️

Then we sing the mantra. Today, it felt especially beautiful, powerful even, and I caught myself smiling while singing. Wasn’t I just sad? No, not anymore. After the mantra, we tune in, connecting to IKYA and the crystal guardian, sharing the principles that reveal themselves to us. My whole being felt awash with love, as my sadness transformed into a warm, flowing presence. Today, there’s no need to force pressure to create diamonds. I’ll leave that for another day. I won’t push to move faster than the speed of karma — that, too, will arrive when the time is right. Today, all I hear is the chuckling of a herring forest stream. I’ve never felt so connected to The Guardian. It wasn’t my laughter I’d heard earlier; it was hers. Her laughter sounds like a trickling, bubbling brook, and I felt a deep joy at finally meeting her. She’s so gentle, lovely and wild. Wow.

Can you hear the sound?

Afterward, I headed into the forest with our dog, listening to Pink Mangano Calcite teachings in my ears. IKYA's quotes danced along the path before me, written in the craziest fonts. And yes — they really do change, haha. "Just speak, bitch!" The word "bitch" appeared in bold, gothic font — cheeky, and I liked it. I screenshot every timestamp, rushing home full of inspiration. Just a few days ago, Ine, a fellow IKYA student, suggested we create phone screensavers with crystal principles. I loved the idea, so today I've created the wildest screensavers with the Crystal Guardian by my side, her brutal sense of humor in full swing. We've made five new wallpapers featuring various crystal principles and shared them with the crystal students on Facebook — just for fun! And this is what I long for: lifting each other’s ideas, sharing them, and bouncing off each other’s energy. To throw out an idea and see if someone else will carry it forward.

And this is why I wake up at 5:00 a.m. This is the mother my children need me to be, grounded in my purpose, my truth, and my strength. It can be gentle and dancing like a little stream but still hold the divine power to create. Water doesn’t choose its path; it simply flows. And so do I.

Miriam meditating with Akira.

text reading Just speak, bitch!